Never Ending Problems

Blogging time now since my working system is currently down :P

I easily get very envious on other couples wherever I go. Too bad, we are not one of them! And I never met any boy friend treat me nicer in my past pak tor (dating) experience. I am very sucked up YES I know it, you need not remind me for that.

I thought I will last long with my current bf but I would rather accept the fact.
My bf is a very hao fa fa (sweet talk) type guy. I feel very unsecured to be with him...
I hate people lie/bluff/cheat on me especially those I close with.
He did and he denied it few months back. I lied to myself to accept the fact... Very pitiful right?

Should I end this relationship? Short time suffering is always better than long time suffering.
We just have so much different thoughts.
Eg: I think to own a house is better than owning a car since you already have a car, but he thinks upgrading car represent status. He thinks that studying in Monash is cool and studying in other colleges are just merely shit. He thinks her favourite girl taking pictures with S95 is nice while mine are totally shit!! He told me that he doesn't like to take pictures but I browsed through his notebook and saw so much of her pictures YA all with his ex-es! I think I am the particular one that he doesn't like to take pictures with! We accidently bumped into his ex in a mall that he told me that was his friend's cousin but I saw his picture in the notebook kissing that girl??

Am I really that easy to be cheated or do I really that naive to him?? I AM NOT!!! I just hide them all in my heart, pretend like nothing happen and keep quiet just like that mother fucking idiot! I just need someone to care me, to treat me better. Is this really hard? And why all the liars come ruin my life??? He has been telling me to treat me better so many times, he is actually talking laugh but no action at all. I guess I am pretty disappointed with him again. Another failure in love SIGH

I wish I am determined enough to end this bull shit relationship though.